16. Watch The Notebook

"I am no one special; just a common man with common thoughts. I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect, I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and for me, that has always been enough."

Aaaand I'm crying.

The reason that I put "Watch The Notebook" on my Bucket List is threefold:

1. Pretty much every girl and her grandmother has watched The Notebook, and I felt a little left out. Subsequently, I knew that this particular romantic drama was a bit of a tearjerker, and I challenged myself not to cry (I failed miserably, but we'll get to that later)
2. I was hoping to catch the Ryan Gosling fever that exists within the hearts, souls, and loins of most of my friends, which is something that I've never been able to understand
3. I seriously needed to find out what the fuck "If you're a bird, I'm a bird" meant

Nicole picked me up from my house at around 1pm today, and we went to Lonehill shopping centre. I had no idea what we were doing there, and I had no idea what we would be doing for the rest of the day as she had made it a point to keep it a secret for ages. When we walked into the video store, she told me to stand on the other side of the shop while she rented a DVD, and then she drove us back to her house. After a tense and violent argument regarding whether or not I had asked for ice in my coke light (knives were drawn) (okay, that's a lie), she popped in the DVD and it all made sense. I was there to finally watch The Notebook.

"Do you want me to get you tissues?"

"I don't know, will I need them?"

Yes. Yes, I needed them. I started crying when Allie broke up with Noah and then changed her mind as soon as he started driving away, and I stopped crying when... Oh. No, wait.

When I got home, and after I thought I had no more tears left, my mom asked me to tell her what the movie was about. The waterworks came back on sometime around "Well, it started off with..." I don't know why the movie affected me so much. Maybe it was because I can't decide whether it was heartbreakingly sad or triumphantly happy. Maybe it was because it was the truest portrayal of an everlasting love that I have ever seen. Or maybe it's because 

Oh, sorry, wrong Rachel McAdams movie. Oh, and on the subject of Rachel McAdams, she is so perfect and beautiful that she somehow has me both in love with her and wanting to jump off a cliff at the same time. And did I catch the Ryan Gosling fever? Yes. Yes, I did. I still see him as a horse-looking murderer (considering the fact that the first movie that I ever saw him in was 'All Good Things'... in which he played a murderer and, in my eyes, that will stay with him forever), but now, he is an incredibly attractive and perfect horse-looking murderer.

All in all, I loved it. The story of Allie and Noah was so enchanting and pure that it could melt even the hardest of hearts.

And now my mom wants to watch it with me, and I don't know if I can do that...

Because there's a sex scene and that's awkward.